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Ficlet: Embalm Her Alive (Lynn, Aaron) R

Title: Embalm Her Alive
Author: sadiekate
Pairing/Character: Lynn, Aaron
Word Count: 579
Rating: R for language
Summary: She was 20 when she met him.
Spoilers/Warnings: Through 1-12.
Author’s Note: Cross-posted at [info]veronicamarsfic



She was 20 when she met him, not even old enough to drink.

He was 27, and not yet a household name; his star was still only on the rise, he was only on the cusp of worldwide fame, but she was starstruck nonetheless, all stammering and lowered eyes, and she could have kicked herself for being so provincial. But then he flashed her that wolfish smile, and she knew she’d somehow, unwittingly, done something right.

If you looked at pictures of them from back then, you’d hardly recognize her, with long hair and lips that were still her own. He aged too, but he’s still unmistakably him – same feral smile, still nothing behind the eyes. It’s hard not to notice now, that dangerous lack of affect, but she was young, and didn’t know to look for things like that. Of course, if she’d ever bothered to really open her eyes, she would have seen even more truths than that one – practically everyone in Hollywood is a sociopath.

She should have stayed in the Midwest.

She was 20 when she met him, and at first it was all business. He was getting big enough that he got to approve his co-stars. She met him in his office when they were casting The Pursuit of Happiness, and she liked him right away. He was about the first man in a position of power who didn’t try to seduce her. He was warm, solicitous, and he kept his distance. Of course, it was all a game, she’d realize later. He just wanted her to want him.

She was only 20, and she felt guilty for fantasizing about him, even as he showed her pictures of his 5-year old daughter and teared up while talking about his late wife who had overdosed on sleeping pills just six months earlier.

It was strange, looking back, at the judgment she had passed on that woman. She hadn’t been able to comprehend how anyone could leave a husband and a child and a luxurious lifestyle. She had thought the woman was selfish and awful. Now she understood it was a mercy-killing.

She was 20, and she had never had nice things until him. He bought her dresses and jewelry and expensive champagne. He said every right thing, and she was too young to know that they were just lines he recited, that he was the same person on-screen and off.

Non-person, really. Just a vessel for whatever part he chose to play.

She was only 20, and she didn’t have a crystal ball. She didn’t know that soon he’d buy her beautiful houses she couldn’t escape from, that jewelry would be replaced by purchases of legal drugs and collagen injections so that she could embalm herself alive. She didn’t know that he would buy her silence, but she would still pay the price.

She was 20 when she met him.

21 when he announced their engagement at the premiere of their film.

22 when she married him.

23 when she gave birth to their son while he was fucking an extra on a film set in Canada.

24 when he punched her in the face because the baby wouldn’t stop crying.

25 when she started having scotch in lieu of breakfast.

She was 20 when she met him, and as she steps off the edge of the bridge, she thinks that is actually the day she died.

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[info]slayervixen

August 25 2005, 14:43:20 UTC 6 years ago

WOW...i loved it. The repetition of 'she was 20' was just spot on. Makes me feel kinda sad for poor Lynne. This was really nice..thank you x

[info]sadiekate

August 25 2005, 15:03:50 UTC 6 years ago

Aww, thanks!

[info]beadattitude

August 25 2005, 14:56:03 UTC 6 years ago

Oh, that's really a punch in the gut. In a good way. Poor Lynn.

(And I really like the fact you acknowledged all her plastic surgery, too)

[info]sadiekate

August 25 2005, 15:03:35 UTC 6 years ago

Hee. I've seen a pic somewhere of Lisa Rinna, pre-collages. I may post it in my journal today, if I can dig it up.

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[info]hjcallipygian

August 25 2005, 14:58:11 UTC 6 years ago

I love how you use the repetition of the phrase "she was 20..."

Is it canon that Trina's mother is dead?

[info]sadiekate

August 25 2005, 15:02:37 UTC 6 years ago

Nope. No one knows what's up with that. I just figured it would be nice if all Aaron's wives offed themselves.

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[info]lea724

August 25 2005, 15:39:49 UTC 6 years ago

Oh, wow.

Really great fic.

so that she could embalm herself alive.

I loved that line.

[info]sadiekate

August 25 2005, 15:47:13 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you, dearie!

That line creeped me out, but I liked it.

[info]mp6nov

August 25 2005, 16:03:13 UTC 6 years ago

Wow. That was so great. It flowed really well and I love the insight into Lynne and why she started drinking, why she had plastic surgery, why she stepped off the bridge. This was a seriously fantastic piece of writing. Great job.

[info]sadiekate

August 25 2005, 16:17:41 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks you so much!

[info]herowlness

August 25 2005, 16:50:55 UTC 6 years ago

WOW. This was very powerful and insightful. I loved the repetition of the numbers at the end, showing the progression of her relationship with Aaron - from something disguised as love, to something she wanted desperately to escape.

Thanks for posting. =)

[info]sadiekate

August 25 2005, 17:03:07 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks for commenting! I'm really glad you enjoyed it.

[info]empressvesica

August 25 2005, 17:13:06 UTC 6 years ago

*blinks a few times to clear the tears* Wow. Very powerfully done.

[info]sadiekate

August 25 2005, 17:19:45 UTC 6 years ago

Aww, thanks!

*hands you some kleenex*

[info]mutinousmuse

August 25 2005, 19:46:09 UTC 6 years ago

More sadiekate greatness! Surprised? No. Pleased as punch? You betcha!

[info]sadiekate

August 25 2005, 20:07:36 UTC 6 years ago

Well thank you!

[info]mgclark2

August 25 2005, 20:25:13 UTC 6 years ago

Dude, that's wretchedness.

Which I guess means you did an excellent job.

[info]sadiekate

August 25 2005, 23:30:12 UTC 6 years ago

Wretched IS good. I agree.

[info]tinylegacies

August 25 2005, 22:59:30 UTC 6 years ago

Wow - incredibly powerful stuff.

I liked the repetition of the "she was 20" and the last line was so tragically beautiful.

I also liked the parallel you drew with Aaron's first wife (I don't recall that from canon).

[info]sadiekate

August 25 2005, 23:30:35 UTC 6 years ago

Oh, I made it up. I have a very vivid imagination.

[info]pixelarious

August 25 2005, 23:24:15 UTC 6 years ago

Whoa... really good. The untold Lynn story, and I can fully believe it. Effective and sad- nicely done.

[info]sadiekate

August 25 2005, 23:30:55 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you so much!

[info]etrnlscribbler

August 26 2005, 00:45:28 UTC 6 years ago

LOVE. THAT. You made me feel sympathy for Lynn, ;). That's quite an accomplishment! I love that you fleshed out her character, and the use of repetion was great.

[info]sadiekate

August 26 2005, 11:27:26 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks!

[info]bello_sogno

August 26 2005, 01:05:58 UTC 6 years ago

Now you've got me curious, I'm trying to find a picture of Lisa Rinna with her original lips.

Anyway, I really enjoyed this. I love the way you've described Aaron - the feral smile, empty eyes, and how he's always playing a part. And the last line gave me chills.

[info]sadiekate

August 26 2005, 11:28:01 UTC 6 years ago

I swear I've seen a pic somewhere, but I've no idea where.

I'm glad you enjoyed it!

[info]merovin

August 27 2005, 01:44:20 UTC 6 years ago

Very nice - the last line literally gave me a chill.

[info]sadiekate

August 27 2005, 02:43:17 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks for the compliment!

*hands you a blanket*

[info]sophia_bee

August 27 2005, 05:24:30 UTC 6 years ago

Nicely done. I especially liked the build-up to the ending. Muy bueno!

[info]sadiekate

August 27 2005, 13:52:14 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks, sweetie!

[info]darwyn

August 29 2005, 20:51:55 UTC 6 years ago

Awesome stuff! Very powerful and sad.

[info]sadiekate

August 29 2005, 22:22:47 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you!

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[info]sadiekate

September 8 2005, 18:07:44 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks for the compliment! If you're really interested in reading more, my stories are all in my memories.

[info]sinca

September 10 2005, 08:18:50 UTC 6 years ago

Oh, I was so excited when I realized you had a fic I hadn't read yet. It's like finding another Christmas present under the tree!

This was so chilling, I loved it. Just the right amount of dark. I loved the age tells and the part about Trina's mother. Good stuff.

[info]sadiekate

September 10 2005, 21:07:58 UTC 6 years ago

Aww, thanks for the lovely compliments.

[info]viciouswishes

September 25 2005, 10:05:44 UTC 6 years ago

Excellent fic. Nice use of repetition, it's a hard thing to pull off.

[info]sadiekate

September 26 2005, 00:18:48 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you!

[info]snoopypez

October 13 2005, 09:05:33 UTC 6 years ago

Oh.. holy shit. This gives me chills. Wow.

[info]sadiekate

October 13 2005, 12:21:57 UTC 6 years ago

Aww, thanks.

[info]morbidmuse

October 19 2005, 20:39:36 UTC 6 years ago

Sent here by [info]snoopypez and I'm so glad she told me about your fic. You did a wonderful job writing Lynn and Aaron. Beautiful repetition.

[info]sadiekate

October 19 2005, 21:27:31 UTC 6 years ago

Aww, thanks so much! And that was so sweet of her to rec it.

[info]cbr1965

January 11 2006, 03:34:12 UTC 6 years ago

Very sad and creepy vibe

I loved this one too. It really encapsulates Lynn's miserable life and Aaron's destructive and manipulative nature. "She was 20" flowed nicely throughout and kept the fluidity of your storytelling. Very nice structure -I particularly liked the resolution using her increasing age to drive home her reality.

[info]sadiekate

January 11 2006, 03:36:03 UTC 6 years ago

Re: Very sad and creepy vibe

Thank you! This one was a big departure for me, and I'm glad people are still enjoying it.

[info]blushingsigh

May 21 2006, 06:49:11 UTC 6 years ago

Beautiful and powerful. I'm awed. I loved the structure of this fic and the fic , it self of course and the last line is so chilling and heartbreaking. This is the kind of fic that makes me want to grab the next person and say 'Read this!'. Once again, perfect job.

[info]sadiekate

May 21 2006, 18:25:12 UTC 6 years ago

Aww, thank you so much. I love getting compliments on older fic - it makes me so happy that they are still being read and enjoyed. Thanks for taking the time to comment.

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[info]zgirl714

July 12 2006, 04:47:18 UTC 5 years ago

I loved this. I can even begin to tell you how great this is.

[info]sadiekate

July 12 2006, 17:41:03 UTC 5 years ago

Thanks so much! It's nice to have people still stumbling across it after all this time.

[info]iamtheenemy

July 12 2006, 08:48:49 UTC 5 years ago

This was such a fantastic story! Thanks for writing it!

[info]sadiekate

July 12 2006, 17:41:33 UTC 5 years ago

Thanks for reading and reviewing! It's such a kick to get feedback still after all this time.
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